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my heart somehow like cramped when #######
I thought sincerity and heart is all needed. i really thought. but seems that in reality, it isn't like that.
had always told my fren to be careful of those surrounding you, just to protect ourself.
but when thing comes to me, i tend to neglect and think this kinda things wont happen to me.
but proven its NOT~!
nvm. take it as an experience. by then i will tell you its your lost for doing that.

hmm...kinda miss home during this lonely night...XD  

LOL

I cleaned and tidied my room today. and I saw my lil diary book.
and I really Laugh Out Loud while flipping it.
how stupid I was..><
but somehow it told me that, I grew up~!! coz when you find those things stupid and childish, meaning that you grow more mature...hmm...i don't know..
just wonder why on earth i wrote those things and felt that way...its ridiculous...
hmm but kinda wish some parts that I wrote were real.  =)  cheers~

Piss OFF

I, DISLIKE,

1.Ppl who are lack of confidence and keep "stepping" on others to climb.
2.Ppl who are overly confidence of themselves and look down on others.
3.Ppl who like to take advantages on others.
4.Ppl who played tricks on others and still feel proud.
5.Ppl who ACT !!!!!

am trying to be kind to you now...dun place the last straw on my back k ??

其实

内向的男人，很有魅力~XD

Regret

If you ask me whether if  im regret for not xxxxxxxxxxxx.
I will tell you Yes I regret for not xxxxxxxxxxxx.
=) but forget about it...you all wont get what i mean....
im just too..duh...nth...forget about it...just let it go...

内向的人.

1、自己走路会很快
2、喜欢黑夜，习惯晚睡
3、隐藏心事，喜欢一个人流泪
4、喜欢有口袋的衣服，否则不知道手该放哪里
5、习惯抱臂
6、习惯冷战
7、喜欢窗户，喜欢角落、习惯蜷缩
8、喜欢写字和阅读
9、莫名地孤单，无法抗拒的恐惧感
10、不爱说话或很爱说话
11、心事放在心底，有一个自己的世界
12、把笑挂在脸上，幻想自己是有安全感的孩子
13、习惯了沉默，在沉默中爆发或者选择灭亡
14、习惯了怀疑，却总是要把人往好处想
15、不相信童话，却一直期待会有个真正懂得自己保护自己的人出现
16、喜欢怀旧，之后感到深深的寂寞和恐惧
17、不喜欢一个人逛街可又总是一个人逛街
18、一点点事就胡思乱想，想到戏剧般的吓人
19、喜欢听慢歌，伤感的歌
20、会很用心地记下生命中出现的每个人
21、习惯暗恋，爱上一个人会全心全意
22、坐在电脑前，不知道做什么，却又不想关掉它
23、觉得世界上每一个人都不可靠，但却还是那样地选择相信别人
24、偶尔会有种想消失，或是想一辈子沉睡的想法
25、不喜欢等待，却总是等待
26、经常不经意的发呆
27、习惯活在过去，喜欢怀旧
28、总会把事情想得很长久
29、不习惯一个人莫名其妙地消失在自己的生命中
30、总是觉得没有人能把自己放在心里疼
31、容易满足，更容易受伤
32、喜欢伤感，甚至颓废
33、习惯保留自己，因为只有这样在离开的时候，心才不会痛
34、总有一种，被忽视的感觉
35、看似花心，看似肤浅，其实是在保护自己
36、付出的远远超过得到的
37、很固执，不懂得放弃，但一旦放弃了就绝不会回头
38、总是说着要离开，却一再为自己找不离开的理由
39、在别人面前笑得很开心，一个人的时候却很漠落
40、在陌生人面前很安静，在朋友面前胡闹
41、玩网游只是为了打发寂寞
42、喜欢下小雨时淋雨
43.、并不是所要的太多的回报，只要一点点就可以让我们死心塌地，可以很少，但一定要有
44、心情不好的时候，却喜欢听悲歌

copy pasted from FB..
 我全部都中了..... 除了第36项....因为...我学会不付出了.....

达人-刘伟.

yer~!!gosh my fren all laugh at my chinese language usage...grrr...gonna practise liao~ok
今天看了一个video.....真的很感动诶~~一个来之中国北京的年轻人. 刘伟.
先讲我自己好了...我从4岁就开始学钢琴, 也考过了第8级..但,始终不敢在众人面前弹..
 一来,我会紧张. 二来,我没有别人那么棒...我的老师也说我是个很急的人.
所以很长时候,我需要放慢脚步学习,才能达到最好的效果.
简单来说,我觉得我自己的水平还不够资格站在舞台上...
虽然我有很多很多很多,太多太多的机会,能够站在舞台上,用音乐来事奉赞美主.
但,我一次又一次,一次又一次的,让机会流失...
可是我何尝不想呢??
其实我很喜欢音乐.我喜欢弹钢琴,我喜欢唱歌,我也想学小提琴,学风琴.我还想学吉它叻!!
只要音乐一响起,我就会跟着它走,跟着它跳,跟着它开心,跟着它唱得大大声...
In short, Music is amazing..its a magic for me. It can directs and controls my emotion..

但是看到了刘伟,这位没手的年轻人,竟然能够在短短的4年,学会用脚弹钢琴.而且还弹的很不错..心里实在是太自卑了..
为什么我这样一个有手的人弹16年的钢琴,还逊过一个用脚弹钢琴只有4年的人..太欣赏他了!!
他确实感动了我. 也感动了许许多多的人..
喜欢他讲的两句话.
1)没有人规定,钢琴一定要用手弹.
2)人生中只有两条路.要么死了,要么精彩的活着!

没错!活着就是要精彩的活!
ok sharing 这个 video..希望大家看了也能学习到一点功课.




最后我想说,
真正的达人,是用生命来展示他的才华.
而身为基督徒,不也是应该,用生命来影响生命吗??
希望所有的基督徒真的都能用生命来做见证.用我们短短的生命来为主发光做盐.

an niong.

=) I still remember the moments we had.
Despite the time we had, we tends to be very "superficial". yeah we do talk our heart sometimes..but just sometimes...
Not that I don't want to go deeper, is u who tends to pull me back.
I can't remember the first time we met.
But as time goes by, I got to know you better.
and I can tell, you are the one am looking for...
Your personality impressed me. you are mature than the others.
and you are spiritually growing.
You are not handsome, but you are charming and smart looking.
You are the one who can give me the comfort I want and when I was with you, I felt secured.
You are a family lover. which I found super duper nice. and happy to be with u.
You are Friendly but not Flirty. Naughty but not Annoying. Cute but not Childish.Funny but not Freaking.
You are surrounded by ppl whom our parents known as "bad frens" but you won't even be influenced by them and yet you are the one who influenced them.
I tend to imagine a picture of happy family after we get to know each other well enough...i mean its really amazing, that I will start to imaging something like tat....and its super amazing that I would wrote it down here.
you have stayed in my heart for a few years..oh of course without asking ur permission..
but waiting for an unknown and unsecured result is just so horrifying for me.
you know very well that Im not the kind that would make the first move..and I know you wouldn't too...
oh maybe u did, but I was too stupid and too childish to know that it is.
=) maybe its time for me to open up my eyes and have a look of people around me.
and maybe now is not the suitable time for us. or maybe we are just not suitable.
well, i will continue to keep u in the lil corner of my heart..until I met my true love and if its not u, then i will clear it up...but you were always be one of my sweet  memory...=)

微笑

我做这么多 ,只是希望, 你能多了解我一点....可是, 我怀疑...你有没有在观察....还是, 你一直都不在乎...甚至, 一点都不知道...

M.I.S.S.

I miss my bible. SOoooo much~~
Regret I didn't it along with me when I came here...=(
I want to have my bible. My BIBLE.I want to read it.. T.T
Bible in the phone is just totally different with my own BIBLE..i mean the bible in book form.
and I really miss my church...miss it very much...miss the way we have our singspiration and the way we praise our Lord ...tears filled my eyes when I watched the video clips of our brothers and sisters in Christ from Korea..
miss those moments when I was in Korea. miss those moments when we woke up at 4 in the morning just to praise and pray to our God. really miss it...I really really miss it...
I want to have my intimacy with God back to me..feels really bad when I thought of it.
I'm really tired. Really really tired.

I can always be there to grab your hands

haha found this cute lil pic while searching the net..

its cute right??? hehehe...like both this babies soooo much~~~makes me smile~~
and they remind me of something.




















Lord Jesus will always be there to grab my hands too.and yours as well.
Dun worry, just trust in Him and He will guide you in every single path you step.
Do your Best and God will do the Rest.^^
Hav a nice day~~

AUGUST

just started~~~and I was like, time pass real fast..
anyway, this is my first post in AUGUST~!!! hahaha.. ==
well I moved into my new condo. hmm...kinda excited~~
but seriously, my condo was dirty...i mean real dirty...
but thanks Goodness I knew how to clean up those messy place..
haha of course with some "helper"~~~
keke..thanks to my dear friends, Steph, Jenny, Judy and Jackie~~~

and I kinda like this sentence,患难见真情..
Its so TRUE~~!! ><
 Friend in need, is a friend Indeed...
Treasure your friends ppl, coz you will never know how many times you both left...
and Treasure your life too~~